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A Season of Deeper Trusting

12/14/2013

 
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Is there really anything we have ever wanted other than to truly trust that all is well? Have we ever really wanted more than to simply know that we are cared for right now and that we do not need to fret over the past nor worry about the future? 

This is what is filling me now in the wake of a recent physical & emotional inner storm. I learned many years ago to take heed when a virus brings a fever along with it. I have learned that it is always an opportunity to allow an inner conflict to burn itself out in the heat of this physical, mental & emotional fire. And that is indeed the gift I have received once again.

I have written before about my early life conditioning that taught me to believe that it is irresponsible to live in the present moment, for then we are not planning for the future in a way that will ensure we never become a burden on anyone else. And after years of sparring with this belief in the boxing ring of my own created conflicts, I am once again being given the eyes to see how untrue this really is. 

I know I was a precocious and willful child at times. I was stubborn and determined to get my way when I was very young. And although much of that changed during the decades of my internment in public school, I still need radical measures, from time to time, to break free of this personal desire to control my life and my future. And an illness that keeps me bedridden is often just the cure that I need when my mind has become sick with self-striving. 

My mind is always skeptical of any teaching that says that I can turn over the command of this ship to anything or anyone but ME. However, in the wake of this blessed inner storm I am weary and realize that turning over command to the Divine Source that is not separate from me is all I truly desire in the world. For to relinquish the inner fight is what my Soul has been calling me to all along. 

So now I sink down deeply into the sacred darkness of this time of year, allowing all the busy people to pass me by. For my merriment comes from deep within me rather than the lights and frenzy of one more commercial christmas. In this deep and sacred stillness the voice of Christ permeates my weary mind and body and reminds me of what I have known all along……more than anything else, I seek the solace of knowing that all of my little plans are insignificant in the face of this Divine Calling. And as I let myself be cleansed of my worldly striving, I know that this sacred time is a passage into the realm of awareness where we see that we have indeed been held by Grace all along.

So I send you blessings and peace during this sacred season and pray that you too are able to feel the deeper calling that arises within you…..the calling to trust that home is right here…and it has been here all along. 


♡ Jeanette

Joss link
12/17/2013 05:12:14 pm

What a beautiful knowing this is. I too have experienced the inner awareness and healing that comes through illness of the body. when our body can do nothing but rest, our inner wisdom is able to rise to the surface in a powerful way. Namaste.

Jeanette
12/19/2013 12:17:39 pm

Yes, dear Joss....I pray that is true for me now. What a time of transformation these past years have been and I relish that time to sink in deeper and glean the messages that are rising within me ♡

Jackie L. Robinson
12/18/2013 02:10:29 am

Feels like many of us are experiencing similar moments of surrender. There is this continual inward spiral of release, opening, allowing and awakening to something deeper. You have a beautiful way of writing and sharing, Jeanette and such a lovely spirit of surrender. Sending love to you. Xoxo

Jeanette
12/19/2013 12:20:29 pm

Thank you so much Jackie. It is so wonderful to see you here and I so appreciate all you have shared over the past couple years. And indeed, surrender continues to be at the top of the list on my Soul's invitation to open deeper still. Love to you too! ♡♡♡


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    Here you will find the messages that flow from my Soul to your Soul. My own Journey to the Center of mySelf has been rich & diverse & has led me to create this Center for Transformation to offer information about Traumatic Awakening and Soul stories that help us rediscover the truth of who we really are.

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