Spiritual PTSD
Fearing the Call by Jeanette Amlie
I am beginning to find as I meet more & more people who have embarked upon a journey of conscious self-exploration, that many of these Souls seem to exhibit what I can only call “Spiritual PTSD”. We are in a time of such accelerated energies & transformation that the sheer intensity of the process itself can be quite overwhelming. This is why it is so very important for us to find & create havens of support & understanding to ease the strain of this amazing process.
My own “Radical Transformation” came upon me with such force & was so unexpected that it nearly shattered all aspects of my life at the time. And I will admit that it took years for me to work through the majority of the energetic, physical, emotional & finally mental shifts that were required for a new way of interacting with the world to emerge. And I'm certainly not done - the process continues to this day.
During the early phases of my transformation I remember a good friend & fellow spiritual traveler who commented that I seemed to be doing in 3 years time what had taken him 30 years to move through. Now I'm 8 years into it and still life offers me deeper and deeper ways of seeing how my own conditioning continues to limit my ability to engage fully in life. And things continue to accelerate...I am finding that many other people are now being called to go through in just months, what took me years to traverse! So it seems that we must now really “cut to the chase” as they say & not dilly dally in myriad side eddies of fantasy or indulgence.
One of my favorite quotes by Adyashanti from his book Emptiness Dancing is, "In times past, there were monasteries--socially recognized institutions where baby Buddhas could find their legs...Today lots of beings are waking up, more than we can throw into the monasteries. It’s getting quite out of hand."
I am seeing first hand how traumatizing it can be to go through major spiritual transformation -- with myriad swings in moods, heightened sensitivities & often bazaar symptoms -- without that socially acceptable container to swaddle us in until our fragile wings can support us as we emerge from the cocoon of metamorphosis. And this can be even more challenging if conventional medicine &/or psychology are all we have to try & understand & deal with what is going on.
I was fortunate enough to be in Santa Fe & surrounded by numerous people who encouraged me that I was not going crazy & that although it didn’t feel like it, what I was going through was actually a blessing in disguise. Yet so many people are not this fortunate. And this is why I feel that this amazing social, conscious, spiritual network that has sprung up in such a short time is so very beneficial. For suddenly people can go online & search for words like “nervous breakdown” and find far more than a medical definition & a plethora of drugs promising to “make it all go away”. Instead they can find myriad websites & pages on Facebook that help to affirm this life changing & consciousness raising process, rather than having it pathologized & medicated as was common in times past.
So I extend my gratitude to all the amazing beings who encouraged me to share my experiences in this global etheric community. And it is my prayer that Blue Earth Awakening can truly be a Center for Transformation that facilitates this awakening of the SomaPsycheSoul in all who feel drawn to come here seeking refuge from the inner storms that can arise during the journey.
I also hope that those in the initial throws of this process will see that this does not have to be an endless “Dark Night of the Soul”. To this end I pray that all of us who have traversed this passage can offer what we have learned in service to the collective awakening of humanity, fully honoring that each Soul designs it’s own unique path to the Truth.
So I invite you to share your experiences, your insights & your questions here on Blue Earth Awakening & especially on BEA Facebook at www.facebook.com/BlueEarthAwakening, which is ideal for interacting with a global community of like-hearted Souls. For together we can co-create a new open, global “monastery” which supports this transformation by our very thoughts, prayers & intentions.
We are in a new time & together we have the ability to envision a whole new way of gracefully awakening to the truth that has been held within each of us all along. No longer do we need to spend endless resources of time & money traveling to the ends of the earth seeking Gurus to point the way home. We are the very gurus of this new era, not because of our mastery as much as our willingness to freely share our journey with others embarking upon this mysterious & magical Journey to the Center of OurSelves.
♡Jeanette
My own “Radical Transformation” came upon me with such force & was so unexpected that it nearly shattered all aspects of my life at the time. And I will admit that it took years for me to work through the majority of the energetic, physical, emotional & finally mental shifts that were required for a new way of interacting with the world to emerge. And I'm certainly not done - the process continues to this day.
During the early phases of my transformation I remember a good friend & fellow spiritual traveler who commented that I seemed to be doing in 3 years time what had taken him 30 years to move through. Now I'm 8 years into it and still life offers me deeper and deeper ways of seeing how my own conditioning continues to limit my ability to engage fully in life. And things continue to accelerate...I am finding that many other people are now being called to go through in just months, what took me years to traverse! So it seems that we must now really “cut to the chase” as they say & not dilly dally in myriad side eddies of fantasy or indulgence.
One of my favorite quotes by Adyashanti from his book Emptiness Dancing is, "In times past, there were monasteries--socially recognized institutions where baby Buddhas could find their legs...Today lots of beings are waking up, more than we can throw into the monasteries. It’s getting quite out of hand."
I am seeing first hand how traumatizing it can be to go through major spiritual transformation -- with myriad swings in moods, heightened sensitivities & often bazaar symptoms -- without that socially acceptable container to swaddle us in until our fragile wings can support us as we emerge from the cocoon of metamorphosis. And this can be even more challenging if conventional medicine &/or psychology are all we have to try & understand & deal with what is going on.
I was fortunate enough to be in Santa Fe & surrounded by numerous people who encouraged me that I was not going crazy & that although it didn’t feel like it, what I was going through was actually a blessing in disguise. Yet so many people are not this fortunate. And this is why I feel that this amazing social, conscious, spiritual network that has sprung up in such a short time is so very beneficial. For suddenly people can go online & search for words like “nervous breakdown” and find far more than a medical definition & a plethora of drugs promising to “make it all go away”. Instead they can find myriad websites & pages on Facebook that help to affirm this life changing & consciousness raising process, rather than having it pathologized & medicated as was common in times past.
So I extend my gratitude to all the amazing beings who encouraged me to share my experiences in this global etheric community. And it is my prayer that Blue Earth Awakening can truly be a Center for Transformation that facilitates this awakening of the SomaPsycheSoul in all who feel drawn to come here seeking refuge from the inner storms that can arise during the journey.
I also hope that those in the initial throws of this process will see that this does not have to be an endless “Dark Night of the Soul”. To this end I pray that all of us who have traversed this passage can offer what we have learned in service to the collective awakening of humanity, fully honoring that each Soul designs it’s own unique path to the Truth.
So I invite you to share your experiences, your insights & your questions here on Blue Earth Awakening & especially on BEA Facebook at www.facebook.com/BlueEarthAwakening, which is ideal for interacting with a global community of like-hearted Souls. For together we can co-create a new open, global “monastery” which supports this transformation by our very thoughts, prayers & intentions.
We are in a new time & together we have the ability to envision a whole new way of gracefully awakening to the truth that has been held within each of us all along. No longer do we need to spend endless resources of time & money traveling to the ends of the earth seeking Gurus to point the way home. We are the very gurus of this new era, not because of our mastery as much as our willingness to freely share our journey with others embarking upon this mysterious & magical Journey to the Center of OurSelves.
♡Jeanette
Inviting you to explore the sacred online group process called SoulShare. It has evolved out of my own process of transformation & working with the Social Nervous System to facilitate being Seeing & Heard on a soul level. We meet online via skype in small, intimate groups. If you are curious & want more information please go to Soulshare Groups.