I must admit that after all of my years of working with the law of attraction & trying to manifest a happy abundant life I finally just got exhausted from all of the intending & efforting & was ready to surrender yet again into a depressed resignation. Then during a recent professional training I was exposed to the first three tenants of Alcoholics Anonymous. These hit me like a ton of bricks at the time and I knew that I really heard them for the first time despite being exposed to them during my studies in counseling. I realized that they were essentially true for anyone who has sought therapy of any kind, or that we were desperately trying to avoid the possibility of their truth. My own version of them has become:
I admit I am powerless & my life is out of control.
I know deep within me that there is a benevolent divine power that can bring peace & balance to my life.
I turn my will & my life over to the care of this divine power.
As a result of this inner mantra that began to penetrate every aspect of my world, a little book came into my field of awareness. It was so simple I would have overlooked it before in my heightened state of 'enlightenment'. But now I was ready to hear the profound messages it contains. It is a little book by Lee Coit called 'Listening' and you can find it on Amazon. Somehow it integrated for me the dicotomies of my years of Zen 'emptiness' and the miraculous episodes of Grace I experienced at the worst stages of my own transformation.
I guess all of us will be given exactly what we need in order to awaken to the truth of who we are. And the Divine Universe will continue to bring it into our awareness until we are ready to see it. So although our inability to see what is offered may perpetuate seemingly unnecessary suffering......it is the suffering itself that cracks our resistance sufficiently to allow the truth to penetrate our defenses.
And so I seem to be entering a phase of greater peace, trust and awareness of the resistance that still is disassembling itself within me. How it will influence this page and this work that I have begun to offer, I do not know. But I am more open to hearing the call of my Soul, even if all I have invested myself in is no longer needed.
Deep Blessings ♡ Jeanette
I admit I am powerless & my life is out of control.
I know deep within me that there is a benevolent divine power that can bring peace & balance to my life.
I turn my will & my life over to the care of this divine power.
As a result of this inner mantra that began to penetrate every aspect of my world, a little book came into my field of awareness. It was so simple I would have overlooked it before in my heightened state of 'enlightenment'. But now I was ready to hear the profound messages it contains. It is a little book by Lee Coit called 'Listening' and you can find it on Amazon. Somehow it integrated for me the dicotomies of my years of Zen 'emptiness' and the miraculous episodes of Grace I experienced at the worst stages of my own transformation.
I guess all of us will be given exactly what we need in order to awaken to the truth of who we are. And the Divine Universe will continue to bring it into our awareness until we are ready to see it. So although our inability to see what is offered may perpetuate seemingly unnecessary suffering......it is the suffering itself that cracks our resistance sufficiently to allow the truth to penetrate our defenses.
And so I seem to be entering a phase of greater peace, trust and awareness of the resistance that still is disassembling itself within me. How it will influence this page and this work that I have begun to offer, I do not know. But I am more open to hearing the call of my Soul, even if all I have invested myself in is no longer needed.
Deep Blessings ♡ Jeanette
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